My life in a nutshell

1.) Sickness
2.) Sleep 
3.) Stress
These are the things that have taken over my life recently. I am overwhelmed by the first and last, and can't seem to get enough of the second no matter how hard I try. Number 3 only makes number 1 worse, and both are preventing me from catching up on number 2. Needless to say this vicious cycle is rather annoying and mostly makes me want to curl up under my blanket and bawl for a good couple hours. 


Since that is not an option, or at least it shouldn't be, I am attempting to push on. I really want to spend my last few weeks here getting as much experience as I can. Soon enough I'll be back at home spending my summer at Best Buy and CVS working in menial jobs without emotional reward. At least here I can see the fruits of my labor in physical tangible form. I must say, I'm definitely going to miss that. 


Considering all of what I just wrote, I think I need to pry myself away from blogging for now and get down to some good ole fashioned hard research. I have a feature to write for internship tomorrow, and a term paper due in a week. Am I ready? No! Will I fake it till I make it? Why of course :) 

Quick update

So life has been a whirlwind rollercoaster lately, both for good and bad (mostly on the not so pleasant side unfortunately.) The best thing recently was my trip home. I know I've talked a lot about how great it is to get out and have new experiences, but sometimes a trip down memory lane can really heal the heart a little bit. It also helps that while home its easy to forget the pile of homework I'm accumulating here. I can't believe I only have 3 more days at my internship and only 11 more days until my term paper is due *gulp* plus I've been falling behind on reading and doing critiques for class.


Its easy to blame all of this on feeling sick, and most of it truly has to do with that, but sometimes I feel like I use that as a bit of a crutch especially at my internship. I have produced diddly squat at 6 of the last 7 days I've had scheduled for internship. Sometimes it was not for lack of trying (like yesterday) but others it was out of sheer contempt for everything having to do with hard work. Even today I had the whole morning gifted to me by choosing an event scheduled for the afternoon, what did I do with it? Beyond sleeping in of course, I did almost nothing even though I left my apartment almost 3 hours later than I usually do.


Anyways, I think its really sinking in that this is almost over. In 3 weeks I'll be packing up and shipping out, I can't quite decide the level of relief that is supposed to bring me yet though. I've really enjoyed living in the city, getting star treatment as a journalist and networking (even though its failed miserably every time I've tried!) I'll be sad to see it go, and as I'm feeling good (physically) at this exact moment, I don't want it to end. But then there are the times when I'm completely doubled over in pain, writing a paper, or interviewing someone and the only thing I can think of is going home or being a normal college kid again. What am I going to do when that knowledge of relief won't be there to save me once I enter the job force for real?


I just got done discussing my plans for after college  with my editor and it stresses me out that I still have NO idea what I would like to do. There are still so many paths that seem appealing to me. This semester was supposed to help me figure out what I was going to do later. Looking back, I can see how its given me a fresh perspective, but it definitely has not laid out a clear path like I'd hoped. As a final though, and I know this is going to sound cliche and really lame, but no matter what this semester I've gotten experience and "padded my resume" and for now, that will just have to be enough :)